終於有時間　整理落單的自己
思緒走進封閉已久　凌亂的房裡
深呼吸　打開門
塵埃安靜在陽光中現形
回憶的空氣裡漂浮愛的微粒

一直不相信　思念會永無止境
以為不再頻繁想起　就是平常心
直到我　一而再　遇見愛徘徊不去的幽靈
才發現　不快樂是我假裝快樂的反作用力

原來　愛情是最深的內心戲
忘記　原來是一種演技
總在雲淡風清後
找到新的證據證明
我    一直穿著國王寂寞的新衣
其實我對你    始終維持最執著的初心

突然間　我放棄
曾答應要向前走的約定
羨慕起　合照裡
那時能　和你並肩的自己

原來　愛情是最難的內心戲
冷漠　原來是一種演技
總在逞強逃避後
找到新的證據證明
我　一直穿著國王寂寞的新衣
其實我對你　始終維持一開始就執著的初心

Finally got some time to tidy up my thoughts.
Sadly it's quite true...
I'm not saying I still haf any fake hope and keep him in my mind.
But sometimes when I am weary,
I just can't find a pair of shoulders that I could lean on...
When I gotta face that result,
he just won't give a damn what it would be, or what I would be.
I'm the one who gotta face it all by myself.
Thanks God I'm fine and I know it should be ENDED.
Officially. Entirely.
Before I just did sth stupid to keep him in my mind,
and actually I was just hurting myself...
Now I promise tat I won't do it anymore.
I gotta control myself, and let it go bit by bit.
Disremember. I know what it reli means now.
Not forget, but disremember...

File closed.
It won't disturb me anymore. Hopefully.

just jot down some thoughts here...

the booklets are driving us crazy.
Maybe it could raise my EQ.
I know I'm weak in it. haha~
I hope everything would be fine...
Oh God...and every night I am craving for drinkssssss!
Skip my meals and merely enjoy the alcohols, the snacks.
And most of all, the LAUGHTERS!
It's reli a gd place to be!

I think I'm reli gettin' better.
At least I won't cry anymore when I listen to Yanzi's songs.
Hers are the hardest to get thru.
Though my heart still aches at times,
the frequency and the intensity are gettin' more insignificant.
Reli glad that you are walkin' out from my life.
I just dun wanna miss you anymore.
It's fun all ard, even without you.
I won't sing "tell me how am I supposed to live without you".
It's just a romantization.
Come on, gotta move on, man!

Anyway, I'm still grateful to you for teaching me sooooooo much.
I still gotta learn a lot to love others.
And gd luck to you as well.
Hope you won't let her down.

I'd like to dedicate billions thanks to all of your warm support.
Haha! You know I'm talkin' about u!
Thx for letting me know I'm not alone.
Love u guys/gals.
And my mum as well. She just gave me the BEST thought.
Reli gd description of our differenes, haha!!!!!

The hardest time has gone.
And when I date back, it's just 1 month after the break up.
Good.
I'm waiting for my NEW target, hahahaaaaa!!!!!!!!!